Just done showering and blow- drying my hair. That’s what every girl does right? Haha. Woke up early for tuition today, i guess every single day i have been doing that during these winter vacation. Met up with my girls and my other two classmates. Had a wonderful time with them. Friends are so precious right? Besides your family. I know friends come and go but you can never erase those times spent with them. The bond you had with them and till now i am so grateful for having such a good company. Not forgetting my family too. They have been really supportive in everything i have done. Appreciate that. Before heading home from tuition, my dear girlfriend ‘Jasmi’ and I headed to this Nursery”. I never thought one day i might be visiting a ‘Nursery’ though its everywhere. In fact, one located near my house. I just never thought of visiting, never cross my mind whenever i pass by one. It felt so great inside. It was so quiet and it felt like i needed this. I felt different. Talking to my babe and just taking a stroll around the nursery felt really peaceful while waiting for my Dad to pick me up. I knew he will be late so in the mean time i was taking a look around inside. What really made me think was what ‘Jasmi’ said to me. It really made me think while on my way home. ‘Take everything as a positive thing even though you struggle and you will be so much happier of the outcome” Though it seems and mean so simple but it really made my mindset change a little. I know i look everything as a positive thing but sometimes i would really criticize myself. I don’t know why but i really had these negative thinking of myself. Its okay to do that because it will eventually make you stronger. Trust me. I have been reflecting on myself lately every time before heading to sleep. I felt so much better doing that. 2011 was my past and 2012 is the present. There’s so much to learn, grow, feel stronger after every single mistakes you make. 2012, bring it on! Haha :) I have to catch up on a lot of things. Friends are leaving this month and for sure i will miss you all. BUT! we can always stay in touch. :) I don’t know why but i am so much happier this way. No worries, no stress. Just family and friends. Though i know i will miss out something. Something that i thought could stay with me, someone whom i can show all my love. I can’t blame you nor do i. If it is to stay within us then it will. If not it won’t. Its simple. You can’t force someone to stay. If you want to move on. Move on. Nobody can do the ‘honor’ except yourself. I know i will miss you but i can’t force anything. I know it will be hard for me if i see you because i still have feelings for you. I can’t deny but i guess i will be happier this way.
P.S. The only permanent thing in your life is your family. :)
